I have been thinking about what I needed to do to make a really big change in my life. I have struggled with my weight for as long as I can remember. I cant blame it on having a baby..I was fat when I got pregnant. I currently weight about 2 pounds more than I did when I got pregnant. It isn't baby fat. It is fat fat. It is inactivity. It is laziness. It is eating junk food. It is late night eating. It is poor sleep habits. It is low self esteem and no confidence. It is insecurity. It is an excuse.
I'm done making excuses.
Im not perfect. I am more aware of my imperfections than anyone that 'knows' me or judges me based on first impressions. I think that is part of my 'issue' ALL I see are my imperfections. I see lazy. I see these things. I am so judgmental of myself it is disgusting. I am a perfectionist. If I cant do something perfect...I dont do it at all. I quit because it isnt right.
I feel like I have motivated/inspired a lot of people to be the person I want to be. Why cant I be the person I want to be? Well. Enough is enough. It is my turn. I'm doing this for ME! I do NOT need anyone to do it with me. I have support. I have people in my life that are 'dieting' and getting active. It is January 8th...isnt everyone doing that right now? I'm not doing this as a new years resolution. I've tried that and failed. I am doing this for me!
I'm not sure what my plan is as of yet but I have a few ideas....I pulled out a cook book (South Beach cookbook). I will put it together and get started.
Im on myfitnesspal: tobrocker
BRING IT!!
On a side note I've decided to do this, start this EPIC thing for me...and I'm moving 800 miles in less than 3 weeks. My life is nuts. But I'm going to do it! No excuses!
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